Holy Shit.

      I was trying to think of a word to describe how I was feeling right now but then I realized I could only come up with two. Spoiler alert: it's the title of this post (sorry mom). Okay I know they are not the most appropriate of words and I was even thinking of substituting the “i” with an asterisk or some crazy symbols but I thought that writing the actual word would be more effective. Actually I’m pretty sure "Holy shit" could start any sentence I could make right now like, “Holy shit I'm about to study abroad in Florence for four months" or “Holy shit I’m going to be on a plane for over nine hours.” See?

    

     It has been such an overwhelming mix of emotions this past month and I'd be lying if I said there wasn't a really big knot in my stomach right now. Don't get me wrong it's not a bad knot or anything, I think it's just more of a nervous/excited one. At this point I feel like I've talked about abroad for so long and yet for some reason it still doesn't feel like real life. My best guess is that it sure as heck will once I am sitting on that plane. Oye. First of all, I am terrified of flying. Yes, I’ve been on a plane before but not for nearly as long. I also have no idea who I will be sitting next to. I really hope they don’t mind a stranger grabbing their hand/wrist/shirt/face upon take off because I can’t make any guarantees and things could get awkward real fast. I mean I will try to keep my hands to myself since society generally tells us to, but once that moment comes I take no responsibility for the actions that will ensue. I’ll plead temporary insanity. Now I don’t know much Italian (actually I don’t know any) but I do know the word VINO, and yes that will be ordered. For two reasons. 1: because I can and 2: because I will desperately need it. Despite the fact that I now sound like an alcoholic and a crazy, I promise I will not be channeling the scene from Bridesmaids because I really can’t afford to be “that girl.” And if you’ve seen the movie you’ll know what I am talking about and if you haven’t...well... 

     Anyway there are so many things that I am scared of aside from the whole flying thing, like not having my cup of coffee to go every morning and not seeing my parents. But there are also sooo many more things that I am SO excited about. I know that this semester abroad will be life changing and I will miss my family, friends, Marist (and Frankenstein) unbelievably, but this really is a once in a lifetime opportunity that I am so grateful for. I hope to do as much as I possibly can and I also hope to keep up with this blog so that I have something to look back on. Well now that I got all of the sap out of the way I think this is where my first blog post ends and I promise the next will be much more exciting...I’ll even put in pictures (now if that doesn't excite you).

So wish me luck and ciao America! <3

Courtney